Is very strange. On the 14th january I walked out of the house a wife and a few hours later returned a widow. Same person, same place, new status.
It is an easier role than divorcee but almost as isolating.
Oddly I cannot dredge up memories of T other than him walking home after a day at the Polytechnic and his poor wee face in death.
All the in between stuff seems to have, for the moment disappeared.
People have written in cards that memories of our life and trips together will sustain me, wish they would, I just cannot find the memories at present.
Already noticing that similar to a divorce,invitations to “do’s” which involve partners , no longer arrive.
Lunches seem to be OK!
I have started walking again, up to 6 k’s every two days.
Plan to walk the Camino del norte around late April.
Had discussed it with T and he was quite touched that I would do it for him.
T’s son, David , will do some of it with me.
Will take about 7 weeks.
Really felt T’s absence yesterday, just mooching about 88, odd not to have him around. So I slept the afternoon away, probably needed it.
Not a lot else, weather is great, but weeds still managing to grow.